FUCKING PISSED!!!

YES!! I AM FUCKING PISSED!!! AND I CAN TYPE IN CAPS FOR ALL I WANT!!

This is like the first time in who knows how long that I am damn angry for two consecutive days. I like broke some kinda personal record. Airheads who have no respect for people’s time should like go for a brain scan and check whether they have got a frigging brain. FUCK YOU!!!

I have got tons of work to do, not counting the fact that exams are just next week, and you are wasting my time by asking me to go ChinaTown to “take a break”, “take in some Chinese culture” because you don’t think “meetings should be constrained to a room”. What Chinese culture??? All I saw was the interior of Yum Cha resturant!! I feel so cultured all of a sudden. If I got time to take a break, all the more I won’t do it in ChinaTown where I have been like more than a 1000000 times.

The fact that I have got nothing, NOTHING!! to do during meetings is bad enough. Why the hell should I rot while you the actors are practising their roles??? It’s not like I have not seen them act before. I’m fine with seeing them act, but why should I waste like the whole day just because you decide that everyone must be present at the meeting without considering the fact that people like me will have nothing to do there??? Must I do my portfolio with you??? Not like you were of any help to my portfolio except for your director’s brief which part of it was my idea anyways!! And now you expect me to contribute to your frigging portfolio too??? By giving a short write-up of my experience??? The only thing I learnt was to not bite your head off in the middle of the meetings. Being able to whole back criticism and anger is a bloody virtue!! Don’t give me that bull-shit about you not having started on your portfolio. I stayed up two nights to do my portfolio cause I know that you will fucking waste my time, one whole day of my time!!

To top it off, you decided that it would be “GOOD” for the group by informing everyone at 4am in the morning that you decided to push back the meeting from 12pm to 3pm!! Hello!!! Have you considered the fact that people like me have things planned after the meeting which was supposed to end at 5pm??? And now you are saying that we should consider staying in school which would probably mean the meeting’s gonna last till 9? 10? 11? 12? at night???? Did the thought ever occur to you??? To think for others??? To not be a naive, retarded, airhead?? Apparently NOOOOOO!!!

(This is like the fastest typed post from me ever)

Let’s talk about “I am the Wind”

If you are wondering who is Kagura, she is a character from the manga “Inuyasha”. Today was my off day from school so I was lazing on my bed reading manga since morning. Seriously, I can spend the whole day in my bed just reading manga. It’s even better than playing game. Anyways, as I was reading, I was getting more and more drawn into the character Kagura. Maybe I should do a short introduction of her. Basically, she was created by the villian, Naraku, in the story and her life is held in his hands. Hence, she has to do as he says, although she isn’t exactly the nicest person on earth, but then again, I have always been attracted to the villians. So anyways, Naraku learnt of her intentions to betray him and hence gave her back her heart but poisoned her in at the same time. She fleed and enjoyed her short lived freedom which was like what, a few pages of my manga. Kagura ended up on this field and Sesshomaru followed her smell and found her dying there. Her last words were “At least I got to see you in the end” and “I am the wind, a free wind”.

Emo can??? Super devastated when she died. But at least Sesshomaru is still around. Sesshomaru-sama!! Damn it, acting like a crazy fan girl.

The reason I wrote that thing like a poem was cause I know what it feels like, wanting to be free. Although this freedom isn’t exactly the same kind of freedom, but the desire, the wish is the same. I want to be free from obligations, responsibility and anything else holding me back in this life, this world. That’s why my dream is forever out of my reach, because it is out of this world, literally. Call me childish, call me immature, but what can you expect from someone so buried in fantasy, who hates this world to bits, who just want to fly away from here and go to a place where my dreams and fantasy run free. I need escapism, and the only way I can express through my stories, to bring life to them through my stories.

Enough ranting. Back to reading “Inuyasha”

Kagura: I am the Wind~

I am the wind
Never to be enslaved
To decide my own destiny
To do as I please

I am the wind
Fly away from this cage
To soar in the sky
To cruise over the sea

I am the wind
Wouldn’t be held down no more
To act upon one’s orders
To die at one’s whim

I am the wind
Released from the leash
To know what it feels like
To be finally free

I am the wind
Life is short lived
To die is a liberation
To die is to flee

I am the wind
In my last living moments
To have him by my side
To at long last be me