YES!! I AM FUCKING PISSED!!! AND I CAN TYPE IN CAPS FOR ALL I WANT!!

This is like the first time in who knows how long that I am damn angry for two consecutive days. I like broke some kinda personal record. Airheads who have no respect for people’s time should like go for a brain scan and check whether they have got a frigging brain. FUCK YOU!!!

I have got tons of work to do, not counting the fact that exams are just next week, and you are wasting my time by asking me to go ChinaTown to “take a break”, “take in some Chinese culture” because you don’t think “meetings should be constrained to a room”. What Chinese culture??? All I saw was the interior of Yum Cha resturant!! I feel so cultured all of a sudden. If I got time to take a break, all the more I won’t do it in ChinaTown where I have been like more than a 1000000 times.

The fact that I have got nothing, NOTHING!! to do during meetings is bad enough. Why the hell should I rot while you the actors are practising their roles??? It’s not like I have not seen them act before. I’m fine with seeing them act, but why should I waste like the whole day just because you decide that everyone must be present at the meeting without considering the fact that people like me will have nothing to do there??? Must I do my portfolio with you??? Not like you were of any help to my portfolio except for your director’s brief which part of it was my idea anyways!! And now you expect me to contribute to your frigging portfolio too??? By giving a short write-up of my experience??? The only thing I learnt was to not bite your head off in the middle of the meetings. Being able to whole back criticism and anger is a bloody virtue!! Don’t give me that bull-shit about you not having started on your portfolio. I stayed up two nights to do my portfolio cause I know that you will fucking waste my time, one whole day of my time!!

To top it off, you decided that it would be “GOOD” for the group by informing everyone at 4am in the morning that you decided to push back the meeting from 12pm to 3pm!! Hello!!! Have you considered the fact that people like me have things planned after the meeting which was supposed to end at 5pm??? And now you are saying that we should consider staying in school which would probably mean the meeting’s gonna last till 9? 10? 11? 12? at night???? Did the thought ever occur to you??? To think for others??? To not be a naive, retarded, airhead?? Apparently NOOOOOO!!!

(This is like the fastest typed post from me ever)

If you are wondering who is Kagura, she is a character from the manga “Inuyasha”. Today was my off day from school so I was lazing on my bed reading manga since morning. Seriously, I can spend the whole day in my bed just reading manga. It’s even better than playing game. Anyways, as I was reading, I was getting more and more drawn into the character Kagura. Maybe I should do a short introduction of her. Basically, she was created by the villian, Naraku, in the story and her life is held in his hands. Hence, she has to do as he says, although she isn’t exactly the nicest person on earth, but then again, I have always been attracted to the villians. So anyways, Naraku learnt of her intentions to betray him and hence gave her back her heart but poisoned her in at the same time. She fleed and enjoyed her short lived freedom which was like what, a few pages of my manga. Kagura ended up on this field and Sesshomaru followed her smell and found her dying there. Her last words were “At least I got to see you in the end” and “I am the wind, a free wind”.

Emo can??? Super devastated when she died. But at least Sesshomaru is still around. Sesshomaru-sama!! Damn it, acting like a crazy fan girl.

The reason I wrote that thing like a poem was cause I know what it feels like, wanting to be free. Although this freedom isn’t exactly the same kind of freedom, but the desire, the wish is the same. I want to be free from obligations, responsibility and anything else holding me back in this life, this world. That’s why my dream is forever out of my reach, because it is out of this world, literally. Call me childish, call me immature, but what can you expect from someone so buried in fantasy, who hates this world to bits, who just want to fly away from here and go to a place where my dreams and fantasy run free. I need escapism, and the only way I can express through my stories, to bring life to them through my stories.

Enough ranting. Back to reading “Inuyasha”

Oh my gosh!! I am actually back!! Even I’m surprised by me being so fickle and temperamental.

So you guys must be thinking why the hell am I back after all this time? Actually I doubt anyone is thinking that since this blog is kinda dead. Opps~~

Well the thing is, the whole “I don’t wanna live in this world” feeling has gotten a little too overwhelming. I mean, it has constantly been there all the time, but recently, ever since I got into NUS and all, with all the studies and circumstances pushing me back into reality, I need a place for escapism once again. Like what I always believed, if you can’t fit in, create your own world then! And so that’s what I’m gonna do, delve into my ideal world (or not) by creating them through my stories.

The thing is, some of my imaginary world are too close to heart to ever be put down into words. They shall remain in my mind for good. Others are, well, not developed enough to be put into stories, so that’s where the “Argh!!” process comes into play.

Of course I’m still going to touch on stories which are closer to reality (damn!). Whether or not you have realised, they are my anguish, frustrations, fear or even helplessness, transformed onto characters from different walks of life.

Allow me to digress a little. I have gotten myself a hamster!! I must be going mad or something. My dad’s probably gonna kill me if he finds out. Oh well, let’s just see how it goes then. But the whole point is, my hamster is so like me!! She (I know it’s supposed to be it but what’s wrong with me calling her a ”she” since I know her gender?) is like the epitome of laziness! Normally, hamsters would keep running on those wheels in the cage. For mine though, she uses it more as a bed than anything else! All she does is eat and sleep but wierdly enough, I love her for that due to the fact that it’s so me!

That’s all for now. I will post my work up as soon as I get one done. For now, I need sleep. Totally sleep deprived at the moment. My lifestyle is killing me!!

just awhile ago, milton introduced me to this event that is going on around the world. as i am lazy to talk more about it, here is the link for you guys to find out more.

http://www.nanowrimo.org

anyway, it sounded rather interesting to me so i decided to give it a shot. i am working on it now although my novel doesn’t have a concrete plot. the title is “slipping through” for now. i may decide to change it if i can think of a better one. will be updating the novel on this blog so those who are interested can take a look at it. wonder whether i will ever be able to complete it in time. never know when i will give up too. oh well, just going to do whatever i can and see how it goes.

as you can see, most of my stories are placed in the setting of the office. can’t blame me as i am in an office most of my time nowadays. by the way, all characters in my stories are mere fictitious beings. so if you see any simlar traits, please forgive me as i may have adopted some of it from people around me. but they are truly no one in particular but rather a mix of characteristics of various people.

this is the post which pauses my never-ending quest to curb my boredom. wonder how long this would last before i start on my journey again. or maybe this is the journey i have been looking for. who knows? the main purpose of this blog would be to put down my ideas and thoughts in words rather than allowing them to continue wandering around in my head. have been thinking about doing this for quite some time. in fact, it has been years but i never actually got down to it as i was lazy (i am a professional procrastinator) and i kept convincing myself that i didn’t have the time. well, it finally seemed like the right time to do it so here it is. those of you who are tired of reading, please scram. there is this “x” button at the top right hand corner of your screen. just click it. this is purely for my own entertainment purpose and along the way, i hope to amuse beings like myself, just looking for a place to gather around with overflowing creativity juices.